Want

There's no reason anymore. But. Maybe I just don't want to accept it. Or do I have to accept it? I mean, how would you know? Lots of conflicting thoughts all the time at one go. Way more than this. Yet not resolved. How more complicated can I be? And this is one of the reasons. And I never knew that this day would come, where I'm all crazy in the mind and in the thoughts of my own every, single day. Can I be helped? Yes, I can. I just have to want to help myself. The key word: Want. And that one single word, solves everything. But why is it that I don't seem to want?

I'm all crazy inside. Trust.
And I can't help it.